Balancing Heritage and Healing with Didi Dominguez

What happens when a strict Catholic upbringing meets pagan roots? Discover the captivating journey of our guest, Didi Dominguez, a talented shaman from El Paso, Texas, as she navigates her Hispanic heritage and spiritual awakenings. From strict Catholicism to finding solace and power in shamanistic practices, Didi's story is one of transformation and defiance. Learn how her experiences as a practicing witch, tarot reader, and tattoo artist intersect with her theatrical pursuits and career as a stripper, creating a uniquely multifaceted spiritual path.

Enter the world of intentional tattooing, where body art becomes a profound spiritual journey. Didi shares how her shamanistic background shapes her work with clients, turning tattoos into healing rituals filled with meditative practices. Listen as she discusses the powerful impact of witchcraft on her health, using herbal remedies and meditation to manage ADHD, PTSD, and other medical issues. Her insights reveal how the tattoo industry is evolving towards spaces that honor the emotional and spiritual significance of body art, moving beyond traditional noisy studios.

Struggling with imposter syndrome or the challenges of finding spiritual mentors? Didi opens up about her motivations and struggles in practicing witchcraft and astrology, highlighting the importance of operating at one's highest vibration. She shares her journey of balancing spiritual practice with physical limitations and the therapeutic use of cannabis for anxiety. From Toltec wisdom to heartfelt encounters with spirit guides, Didi's mystical revelations and practical advice offer a rich tapestry of spiritual growth, balance, and compassion. Join us for this enlightening conversation and learn how to integrate these powerful spiritual insights into your own life.

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Chapters

• 0:04 The Witch Life
• 17:27 Tattoos and Witchcraft
• 23:46 Motivation and Struggles in Witchcraft
• 39:04 Spiritual Practices and Influences
• 50:13 Discovering Spirit Guides and Divine Connections
• 1:00:15 Podcast Promotion and Contact Information

Transcript

KimHost

00:04

Welcome back to Your Average Witch, where every Tuesday, we talk about witch life, witch stories, and sometimes a little witchcraft. Your Average Witch is brought to you by Crepuscular Conjuration. If you want to join our community and be part of the Hive, join us at facebook.com/groups/hivehouse. This week I'm talking to Didi, a shaman out of El Paso, Texas. I really enjoyed this conversation and I think you will too. We talked about how health is magic, soul contracts, and compassion in practice. Now let's get to the stories. Hi, Didi, welcome to the show.

DidiGuest00:44

Hi, thanks for having me. I'm so excited.

KimHost00:47

Thank you for being here. I am glad to have you and I'm glad Darlina introduced us. Can you please let everybody know who you are and what you do and where they can find you?

DidiGuest00:57

My name is Didi Dominguez. I'm out of El Paso, Texas, born and raised. You can find me, my social media handle is myawesomedidi, Didi is D-I-D-I, Myawesomedidi on Facebook, TikTok, Instagram. I am a practicing witch, I read tarot, I also do tattoos and I'm a performer entertainer.

KimHost01:27

What kind of performance do you do?

DidiGuest01:30

I do… well. I have a long history in traditional theater and a lot of community theater here in El Paso. I also qualify for SAG, so I've done some film. 

KimHost 

01:43

What? That's cool, she didn't tell me all that!

DidiGuest

01:46

I'm also a recognized volunteer ambassador to the city of El Paso. I used to do a lot of tours and my picture still hangs in the airport, welcoming people to El Paso. It's really cool. Yeah, I got into some really cool local groups. I am also a long-time sex worker. I've been a stripper for about 18 years now, on and off. I love the job and actually it was Darlena that ushered me into burlesque. So I'm really excited about that because it mixes my theatrical background with my stripping background and I get to just really have fun for it. I mean, for me performing is a whole ritual and I love it. It was my first love.

KimHost

02:37

That sounds like a good blend. Like it would all combine to be like the perfect production.

DidiGuest

02:45

Yeah, it's so cool. I love it Making the costumes, the choreography, you know it's super fun.

KimHost

02:52

So what does it mean to you when you call yourself a witch?

DidiGuest

02:57

Well, that is loaded, especially coming from my particular demographic. I'm Hispanic, latino. There's so much to my background, as for many people, but very in our, in my history, the family history very closely like, very like. My grandparents are hardcore Catholic and just before that, you know, there was a lot of poverty and they hit Catholicism really hard and it saved them. And so for me, being first generation born here in America, to want to go back to more pagan style roots, pre-colonized roots, it meant a lot of defiance to be called a bruja, and that is Spanish and that is coming from like a colonizer belief. Right, but there was no such thing as bruja back in the day. It was more shaman or yerberismo. So for me it's like going to roots, but it also meant a lot of defiance and a lot of, like you know, shunning from my family.

KimHost

04:11

Could you say what the herb word was again?  Yerberismo?

DidiGuest

04:17

Yerberismo is herbalism.

KimHost

04:19

That is interesting because I always wondered where the term yarb doctor came from in Appalachia, and I think I just found the connection.

DidiGuest

04:26

Yeah, yeah, yerberismo also has. I don't know the root word, but the not love or the. You know pre-English and pre-Spanish words. There's a lot of connection between. I mean even in Appalachia there's just the First Nations blood running through all that. So yeah, definitely that's cool.

KimHost

04:54

I love finding out things that just ease that little itch.

DidiGuest

04:58

Right, yeah, that's so cool.

KimHost

05:04

Would you say…  so you say you grew up in a catholic family. They’re strict catholic but was there any little sneaky, witchy things happening, or are you the first return?

DidiGuest

05:16

Well, first return so I think I'm on the spectrum. I know I have adhd, I was always. I have this great sense of justice. So growing up as a child in Catholicism, at least in my area, you know God loves you, you can do no wrong, you'll always ask for forgiveness, you'll always get it. Oh, I love the Beatitudes, and it got to the point where I sang in the church choir, I taught catechism and I taught the sacrament of First Holy Communion, which is usually reserved for older practitioners.

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05:56

You know, it's a community based kind of thing. Sometimes if you have nuns or priests, friars, they'll teach that. I love the friar beliefs, where that's you know they don't have worldly goods and everything is of nature. St Francis de Assisi was like my hero, but as I got older and the part of my brain that developed of reasoning like why kids don't believe in Santa Claus, I'm like, wait a minute, there's a lot of holes in this story. There's a lot of the Bible didn't really make sense to me and I also started to have like events happen in my life that I couldn't reconcile with the Catholic Church. I started having visions, catholic church. I started having visions. My dreams were either like some type of Alice in Wonderland encoded you know, prophet, prophetic type of dream, and others were straight visions, like straight deja vu, and it got really hard to reconcile that. It got really hard to reconcile how I wasn't just, you know, recognizing patterns in people's behavior. I could predict what would happen. I would see what would happen. I could feel other people's energies seeping out of them. I couldn't reconcile that and I held on to that for a long time and I was still very devout, very devout. So I believe in the power of like prayer and that is what roots my manifestation abilities. Now. I loved some of these prayers and some of these prayers I still use for when I do limpias, when I do energy cleansings on others and on myself.

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07:42

A lot of my tattoos that I was getting through my early 20s are based in the Catholic religion. I have forgiveness or trespasses, because I think forgiveness is a big deal. I have pray for the sinners, also tattooed all across my back with the Virgin de Guadalupe, like it's very, very Latin culture based, and I still believe in a lot of that. But I couldn't reconcile how the church just wasn't acknowledging a whole lot of metaphysical things. And the nail in the coffin was me doing my own research after I had made my sacrament of confirmation to the church. I have found that the Bible is not the oldest telling of the story of Jesus, that there are older Bibles, that there are older stories, that the people of my bloodline the people of my bloodline, the people of my bloodline were were meshing their beliefs with catholicism like it wasn't. Catholicism wasn't just what it is. It was always incorporated. It was always incorporated with whatever peoples, the Spanish trying to incorporate exactly like yes, you have conquer is a more accurate word exactly right.

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09:13

You have the Inquisition, you know. So there's a lot of stuff that I just couldn't reconcile that the church was doing. And then another blow was the fact that the people in my immediate family were not. They would practice on Sundays, but like come Monday they wouldn't. And I, the sense of justice that I had, I mean it made gravel in my stomach. I, it really frustrated me and so quietly I started kind of reaching out for myself and doing like I found a meditation first, and it was actually through meditation that like I was able to really find the root ideas that I was having. I was starting to see more visions and really starting to reconcile why I had those visions. And so it was all kind of internal. I didn't really have like one solid mentor, but I really couldn't reconcile.

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10:10

Long story short, I really couldn't reconcile a lot of what was happening in the church and within me. You know, I know that the church had helped my grandparents through really hard times. Their faith is amazing. I saw a lot of beauty in that hard times. Their faith is amazing. I saw a lot of beauty in that. But I also saw a lot of. You know, like you, you pray that but yet you don't live that. So I don't, I don't understand, it couldn't and I didn't fit what I was experiencing and my quote-unquote fortune telling didn't fit in. I would have to deny a lot of myself to stay in that religion, and I chose myself over religion ultimately.

KimHost

10:54

Good, yeah, well, can you introduce us to your daily practice? Do you have any consistent things that you do, even if it's not daily?

DidiGuest

11:10

Yeah, so I start my day off at the gym usually. I love that is a ritual for me in itself. While I'm fasting, I like to go. I just go in and I get to breathe and I get to stretch and I get to move my body so many years as a performer, you know does a number and so getting the blood pumping, it really helps me out.

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11:41

I do my best to bless my food as I'm cooking it. I take care of dogs. I have my own and I foster. So that is all a ritual where I try to keep everything as kosher as possible. I try to remember healthy things, and that's one thing that witchcraft has taught me too, that, you know healthy eating, natural remedies, things like that. So daily, I do incorporate a lot of natural remedies on my skin with what I ingest, how I clean my home, if I'm washing dishes or whatever, there's always moon water or agua florida, handmade agua florida nearby, hand, homemade, I will fill you in nearby, there's, my showers, my herbal baths. They are all rituals where I like shake off you know, dead energy or absorbed energy that isn't mine. I shake that off. Yeah, like, every day is a little bit of something.

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12:43

I do tattoos. I am a tattoo artist. I failed to mention that earlier, but setting up is also a ritual for me, especially when I have tattoos that have a specific meaning, like memorial tattoos, matching tattoos, things like that. There is a reverence in which I set up everything. I took an oath of shamanism in my mid thirties and there's really no one to keep me accountable for that, but myself. And so there are times where I I forget my rituals. It's so easy, um, but when you're doing the work and when you're really putting yourself into these things, you, you're the one, you're, it's just all you, it's all up to you, and so even calling myself back to myself is a ritual. So that's, it's just a way of life.

KimHost

13:42

Do you advertise yourself as a witchy tattoo artist?

DidiGuest

13:53

Yes and no. I'm really loving this TikTok world, where you can have this awesome career and then be famous off of TikTok for, like rating korean candy. You know what I mean. You can have all of these like. I've seen so many cool accounts that, oh, this is an accountant and a candy reviewer and he likes to work out you know, like stuff like that.

14:18

So I really like that you can just do. You can do your, you can be. So I do um, I do tarot pools, um online and they're just quick and or or fun. I put it out there but I don't necessarily sell it or advertise it to sell it. I do say that I am available and that's because I have worked in shops where I am the card reader you know these little spiritual shops and I'm the designated card reader and I get a lot of. Unfortunately, there's a lot of people that don't want to do the work and just want the answers and I don't, I don't really offer that a lot of the work I do is for donation.

15:11

I used to set up a lot at night markets, especially before I started tattooing, and I would just do for donations. So sometimes I would do some 20, 30 readings and I would walk out with like 20 bucks because that's all I would get.

15:27

Yeah, and I have to say that those are some of the most fulfilling nights that I've had as a practitioner of tarot, because we've got some answers, we got some direction, there was some light. Some direction, there was some light. I'm at like a night party or a night market and people aren't necessarily ready to hear some you know big news and sometimes they would yeah, I came here to listen to the music, not to have you tell me, right? Yeah, and that's. That's another reason why.

KimHost

16:01

Why did they come talk to you then?

DidiGuest

16:03

Because it's it's something I'm also a medium. And if there is, if they are ready for the message, they, the others or the beyond, wherever the message is coming from, has to come through my spiritual guides and protectors, and so, if they see that fit, I will get messages for them and they will be called to me and I put myself there to be just that, like a little lighthouse, ready to shed light if you want to come close enough. And some people aren't ready, some people are totally intoxicatedicated and sometimes the message won't get through unless they're that like buzzed into, like oh crap, my grandma said that like what do you mean?

16:53

And if you spend enough time like I said, I've been a stripper for a long time these environments just harbor people who are sad and want to, you know, find some type of happiness, some time, of some type of escape, and it's really nice to be able to like light the path and say, hey man, this is a dead end, like, literally, you gotta turn around and go the other way, gotta get out of here. Get out of here. This isn't it for you. It's really cool. I've had a lot of blessed and meaningful encounters, not just with, like, my tarot clients at a market, but even with my clients at the strip club. It's amazing what information can come out. Yeah, it's pretty. I even forgot the question now, but I don't necessarily advertise myself.

KimHost

17:52

No, Well, I actually meant specifically your tattoo stuff, because I was looking for a witchy tattoo artist and I finally found one and I just wondered if that was a thing tattoo people look for or do. I do it and I’m… there has to be others.

DidiGuest

18:10

I don't necessarily advertise that separately, I just just kind of oh, that's what we're talking about. We're talking about how I advertise myself. So on my pages you'll see my workout videos, you'll see my tarot videos and you'll see my tattoos. I do get people that want more meaningful stuff. I do have an environment that is generally calm compared to big, loud, noisy tattoo studios. I do offer like quiet sessions. So, yes, I am attracting a specific type of client that wants more of a quiet type of therapy or a, you know, sentimental tattoo, and they want the energy around that to be clean. I have been sought out for that, but specifically witchy, it's not quite there yet, but I'm predicting it will be. So I think that is a thing. I think it's a growing thing, especially as the tattoo industry evolves from the old school you know, party hub, you know to something a little bit more reverent.

KimHost

19:27

When I wanted to put a spell on myself, and so I designed this tattoo, and I wanted a witch to put it on with intention, and so that's why I was looking.

DidiGuest

19:39

That's super awesome. Yeah, I got see. See, I tattoo with intention. That, for me, is a thing, because it's a root from the oath that I took as a shaman that the things that I do that are like permanent right. We do this, yes. Yes, so yes, that is a total thing, and I'd be more than happy to do that for you. I'd be so excited. 

KimHost

20:29

And, of course, that takes a bit of a consultation, right, and I don't know, really know, how to go about that. 

DidiGuest

20:39

Right, it's going to take a consultation, it's going to take some meditation, it's going to take some binding of energies. You can't just jump right in, or they'd have to be, you know, at least a phone call, right. Yeah, it's not the same practice as you are. Or there's stuff like you know, people want, I want something to, you know for my sister, or whatever, and it's like, well then, let's do herbs that represent their zodiacs and let's do and while we're doing, I like that one as, yeah, it was.

21:01

We do these tattoos, we start talking about their loved one, we start, you know, and I will quietly, you know, put in the healing element into it, like the bleed out element, where, you know, I and I even coach some of my clients that are in a lot that pain. Oh, this is going to make me cry. Yeah, he released the emotional pain and you. It's very symbolic and tattoos have been this longer than they've been. Spongebob and Patrick matching tattoos. They've been, they've been ritualistic for a lot longer than they've been fashionable exactly.

22:00

Even if my client doesn't necessarily ask for it, I kind of use my intuition to allow that to be a healing space for them.

KimHost

22:10

That's so good. How would you say witchcraft has changed your life?

DidiGuest

22:20

Oh, immensely.  I have various health issues to now include, like diverticulitis, and I'm allergic to a lot of foods and, going into yet very small, I learned about a lot of teas and herbal remedies for all sorts of stuff and my health, my skin, my hair. It's just really opened up a lot of beautiful avenues to stroll down and just like pick all my herbs. I love it.  It's changed the way I see my own health and my own beauty, way I see my own health and my own beauty. It's also aided. You know, reaching a point of meditation is is crucial to your manifestation and especially in shamanism, to astral project. To reach, you know, different mental states. You know different mental states. Meditation has been key, you know, to deal with my adhd and my ptsd.

23:24

There's a lot of that, but even the rituals will soothe my adhd and my anxiety fits that I get because of that. So witchcraft has really given me a brand new way to experience life in a healthy manner, definitely.

KimHost

23:40

Ooh, that's a good one. What would you say is the biggest motivator in your practice, and has it changed since you first started?

DidiGuest

23:53

Yes, it has changed. It's changed because anyone who practices astrology knows that we're constantly going through these evolutionary energies. Um, you can either spiral upward or spiral downward, you know. So my motivation back to that, my motivation is being or operating at my highest vibration as a shaman. That is what I promise, and having my own practice of whatever it is. I really don't have a name for the ways that I practice. It's my motivation, is my higher self, my. My motivation is my highest vibration and that is constantly changing because my vibration is constantly changing. So that is it and that's why I do it.

KimHost

24:45

That's such an interesting way to phrase it and do it and look at it. I like that. So nobody said that before.

DidiGuest

24:55

Cool.

KimHost

24:56

I like novel, new things, sweet. What would you say is your biggest struggle when it comes to witchcraft or your practice?

DidiGuest

25:07

For many years it was finding others and I thought I needed a mentor. And, oh my gosh, I would sit there meditating and meditating. I need a mentor. Where is my spirit? Where is my spirit? Good, and I, I couldn't. I couldn't find anybody. That was difficult.

25:26

The other most difficult part, before I was enlightened to the idea of living at my highest vibration, it was making myself enough, finding purpose in myself and myself being the reason Trigger warning. I was never able to have children and my PTSD comes from parent abandonment and parental abuse and general emotional neglect. Especially for somebody so intuitive and when I could feel so much regret and rejection from my family, I just really learned at a young age that I was never going to be enough and that I I shouldn't be on this planet. And so shifting that, especially without you know, saying well, I'm a parent, now I have to do this. I even used my four dogs and dog fostering to give myself a purpose and as my senior dogs cross over again I'm faced with. It's just me. And that has been the hardest part is doing it for myself and making myself worth all the effort that I'm putting in.

KimHost

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I didn't expect to have as many tears this interview as I have. Oh my gosh, I relate so freaking hard to what you're saying in so many ways.

DidiGuest

27:04

I’m so sorry. A lot of people do, and that's really what gave me a lot of strength is that I was blessed to be in situations like the strip club like night market.

KimHost

27:22

Nobody is… how many people have said that phrase before.

DidiGuest

27:26

It's not that they have, it's just I'm blessed to see.

KimHost

27:29

No, I mean I was blessed to be in the strip club. That is not a turn of phrase you expect to hear. 

DidiGuest

27:37

Well, that is not a turn of phrase. You expect to hear somebody who's chosen to be on the front lines. You know there's a difference between like in the catholic church, there's the priest and there's the bishop and there's the you know vatican and all of that. The priests are on the front lines. Yeah, and being a community witch, you're on the front lines. Being the witch, you know, matriarch of your family, you're on the front lines. Your energy and what you feel and how you prepare food for those around you, all that energy goes into your family and your loved ones. And me, having taken that oath, I was blessed to see a lot of people that struggled to make themselves worthy. To make themselves worthy, and it happens in different ages and genders and demographics. It's something that you'll be surprised at how many people struggle with.

KimHost

28:34

Do you have imposter syndrome about your practice?

DidiGuest

28:39

Every single day. All the time. Yes, yes, I struggle with being human, reconciling my mortal self with my spiritual self I think that's what it is and in my spiritual mind I am everything. I'll astral project and be whatever I want to be, go wherever I want to go, but then I'm back in this, in this body, and this body has health problems and this body is socially awkward and this timeline is fringe and I'm thinking what, how could I, how could I feel so wonderful but yet so crappy at the same time?

29:16

And I think that, on base level of what I've meditated for because imposter syndrome has really plagued my life and frozen me with anxiety on many occasions, to where the point? I'm an av. I advocate for cannabis because it will help soothe my brain just enough that I can focus and my human brain cannot process all of the emotions and all of the thoughts that my spiritual body has conjured and that makes us say wait a minute, can we really do? What we think we can do Is our imagination lining up with our physical body, and I think that's what drives for a lot of us. I'm not really that we're over here idolizing or having Lucians or limerence for other people's successes, right, I can't do that, like I'm not going to be the next Teal Swan.

30:15

 I'm not going to be as successful, as you know, Kat Von D or anything like that, like I just. But if you quiet yourself enough, I think, to fight this, I've quieted myself enough and I had this vision and it's a pretty cool one, and I, I dreamt, this gives you a little glimpse of of where my, what type of of spirituality or what type, I'm sorry, what type of root cultures inspire my practice. I was walking through Mexican meadows and I like to put myself in these Mexican meadows where there's mint and there's primrose and there's all these awesome Mexican versions of these healing herbs growing, and there's these. There's this tall pyramid and it took me forever to reach the top and as I reached the top, there was these men cloaked in black and they were acting as like, um, grounding rods on the. This pyramid did not have a top and there was about an eight foot by eight foot square that I ended up and it was high in the clouds, because, you know, this is a vision and these men are literally grounding themselves like grounding rods, totally deafening the energy within this square.

31:53

And there was this childlike empress, think of the never-ending story childlike empress, but she's like mexican native, you know, first nations type. She's darker skinned, a larger nose, got the long dark braids and she said you can have anything you want. And she says here she's just like. You can be the best version of yourself. And she showed me women who were academically very smart. Don't you want to be like this woman? And I said that's wonderful, but it didn't ignite my heart.

32:34

I was very proud of that woman for having achieved what she had achieved. Um, you know, my heart swelled with hers, but I didn't necessarily want to be a mathematician. Um, she showed me various aptitudes and other positions that women could hold and and I said, no, I don't, I'm not inspired. And she says well, what did? What does inspire you? And I knew she had like a smirk this whole time, like she knew that I wasn't going to pick any of these other offices. I said, no, I've had people in my life that inspired me to be a good friend. I've had people in my life that inspired me to be a better actress, to be a better sister, a better daughter, just to be a better human. And she says and that's what you have to do, that's all you have to do and that really I carry that.

33:40

And again I forgot our question, but I know that ties into it where I just chose to be a better person. That was what inspired me. Was this conversation with this, with what I believe is what I envision my higher self, you know, in that moment to be what my human brain can conjure as my higher self.

KimHost

34:04

I love that. Thanks. What brings you the most joy in your practice?

DidiGuest

34:18

One of the fundamentals of my practice is compassion, and when I begin to read someone or have a conversation the practice is called platica, or the talk where I can, I'm allowed into someone else's energy. I'm allowed into someone else's energy. There is a bit of a goosebumps or a bit of a physical response to when I can merge with their energy and they suddenly feel seen and understood. And having it with people is one thing. Having it with animals is oh, it's just chef's kiss, like seeing a scared puppy and being able to have given it enough comfort and having it feel safe and they can look up at you and relax and be themselves and feel recognized, feel seen. That brings me so much joy. So it's just, it's the reason why I wake up 

Sometimes.

KimHost

35:32

I wish we could foster, but my dog says absolutely not.

DidiGuest

35:36

Then that's what you need, then that's if that, if that's what your baby says and that's what it is. I'm in the same boat. I have two seniors. Well, my Johnny Cash passed away about a year ago. May he rest in peace. But my June Carter says no more fosters for a while. So we're, we're obeying that. 

KimHost

35:55

What is your favorite tool and it doesn't have to be a physical object, it can be like a philosophy or a song or something and how do you use it?

DidiGuest

36:11

I wish I could say patience. I wish I could say, but I'm not. I wish I could say it's patience, but it's compassion. Again, I have such an innate sense of compassion for others. It's something that I was born with. It's something that has gotten me into a lot of trouble. It's something that I think a lot of people, both men and women, have suffered at the hands of other people because we're trying to have compassion for them and they're using us, especially those of us that are empathic and sensitive. But turning that compassion towards myself has been a great tool. Towards myself is has been a great tool and it's something that I, at one point, was drowning in for other people if they get thirsty, and for myself and I it. Learning how to wield that and then and use that compassion has been my greatest asset.

Kim Host

37:25

What is something you wish was discussed more in the witch community?

DidiGuest

37:28

 Imposter syndrome, because it comes from different roots, root causes we all all have and from there it opens up the the chat for mental health and I think mental health in general is what it's going to lay way to our intentions, and when we're working with witchcraft, intention is, the intention is everything. Why are you doing that binding spell? You know? Why are you putting people in your fridge? Is it because is it for a just reason, or you know, or or not? Why are we doing? There's a lot of, as we know, there's a lot of people that practice out of spite, and so I think if we talked more about our mental health, we would find more common ground, and the early threat of that is that imposter syndrome where we don't feel like ourselves simply because we are not acting like ourselves.

KimHost

38:38

Oh, holy crap. Oh, that hurts my feelings a little.

DidiGuest

38:43

Sorry.

KimHost

38:46

You didn't hurt them. I did.  Think about the three biggest influences on your practice, whether it is a book or a person, or an animal or a deity, whatever. Whoever, thank them for the influence they have over the way you do things.

DidiGuest

39:24

I think…There's a book called the Four Agreements. That is a Toltec belief. The Four Agreements are written by the Toltec and the Toltec story is being retold by Don Miguel Gris and his sons and they have a collection of books now that kind of go into the culture of the four agreements. The four agreements are be impeccable with your word. Don't use the word to speak against yourself or others. Don't take anything personally. Understand that everyone is living in their own matrix, so to speak, and what they do is because of their own selves, not you.

40:02

Never make assumptions because you don't live in the other person's brain and always do your best. Your best will change from day to day and if you do your best, and only your best, you don't overwork yourself. You avoid resentment. So that book and that whole the authors were, I guess I just found the book at the right time for me and it really helped me shed, like the Ten Commandments type of you know, the whole fire and brimstone of beliefs and understanding that it's an agreement and not a forced situation. That is a huge, huge gift and I'm thankful for that.

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I'm also thankful to Kathy Magni, who read my first tarot cards and let me understand, or led me to understand what an impact was and how, through the cards, I could tell what was my emotion versus what was other people's, and she's stood quietly along you know my sidelines just being a wonderful educator. She was my first theater coach and we're still friends to this day, so she's been a great influence. And last is my dogs, especially my Johnny Cash, who just passed. He, he saw me, I, he was a rescue of all black dogs, rescue after year and a half of you know. He was born on the premises, he was there the longest and so many behavioral issues when we got him and the way he saw me, the way I mean anybody.

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Women who have male dogs know how they look at you, and I want to be who my dog thinks I am. Those are my influences.

KimHost

42:10

What advice do you have for someone just starting out?

DidiGuest

42:24

Remember that there's a few principles. Let's get a little technical. There is the law of balance, that is, every action has a negative and equal reaction or an opposite reaction, unnecessarily negative. So in your manifestation, know that the harder you manifest, the harder you push, you're gonna bring a bunch of chaos, so to speak, and that all has to settle. Um, a lot of people lose patience with themselves for that, and it's just know that there is.

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43:04

There are laws to this particular land that we are on on this earth, on this plane, on this timeline. Understand also that time is not necessarily linear. I I am of the belief that we are on all dimensions at all times and we are choosing to experience this particular consciousness and this particular time.

KimHost

43:28

And that's that one.

DidiGuest

43:33

Yeah, exactly.

KimHost

43:35

Like I wish I I hadn't chosen… why did we do this?

DidiGuest

43:38

But then again, it also frees you up to manifest the right one and find purpose in this one. It's like, well, if I'm manifesting my highest timeline, my highest vibrational timeline, why am I having such a time about it? Yeah, there's there's opposite actions. So if this is a fallout for some type of coming, together on the other end.

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Well then, let's continue to search for that other end. I recommend having compassion for yourself and knowing that you are worth it, but yet you are also just a drop in the body of water. That is humanity and that is a Christian supported belief, and I don't think it's original to Christianity. So having it your way at other people's expenses is not having it your way at all those you know it's. It's just the basis. The theme is there is compassion for yourself and for others, and know that.

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You know it takes time to learn some of these things and, and the doozy is that once you start that work, once you commit to a spiritual life, you really can't stop. Um, it's, it never ends. There's always shadow work to be done. There's always an evolution right. Studying astrology can help you navigate through some of the energies that you'll be dealing with, so that you don't feel like everything is your fault and it's just another retrograde of some sort. But it also allows you to look for the opportunity in that lesson. Know that the universe is going to bring you back that lesson you don't have to solve it now, like how it says you don't have to.

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What's that song? You don't have to jump in, but you can dip your feet in these karmic lessons that we learn in life and just know that the universe is going to constantly bring you back to it until not only do you learn your lesson, but that you and even it'll give you sparring practice so you can practice saying no or saying yes or whatever it is that your soul contract is. You will always have an opportunity to win that win over.  

KimHost

46:29

Is there anything else that you wanted to talk about, anything I didn't ask, or any questions you had for me? Or is there anything going on that you're gonna invite people to?

DidiGuest

46:36

Well, first and foremost, I want to thank you for having this podcast, because I think it's gonna. It serves to unite a lot of us that are just so distant. You know, we're all these little lighthouses that don't get to see each other because we're all illuminating different parts of the realm. So thank you very much for that.

46:57

I do offer tattoos by appointment. You can reach me at myawesomedidi on Instagram, facebook and TikTok. I also offer limpias and tarot card readings as well. I like to not give them a timeline, because sometimes we will talk until we have an answer. I'll be performing at the something to brag about burlesque and drag festival. September 28th is my show. I am doing a Prince review, that's right. I'll be dressed as Prince. Super fun, super fun act.You can catch me there and you can check out my fun workout and tarot videos on TikTok.

KimHost

47:52

Do you do digital readings, like distance readings?

DidiGuest

48:02

. I do, I do. We can do phone call, video chat. I prefer a video chat, but we can do phone call as well.

KimHost

48:09

Awesome. So the last two things I ask of my guests… thing number one is please recommend something. It doesn't have to be witch related, just whatever you're into this week that you found and you're like telling your buddies, hey, you should really try this thing, what is it?

DidiGuest

48:27

I am getting back to my connection with aloe vera gel. I love it. I love it. I love it because I love random things like this. It's so silly. I used to have a whole herbal garden and with the puppies that I was fostering, they consecrated it for almost a whole year. It was a beautiful herbal garden and now that I don't have puppies and I'm like missing my herbs, I I bought herbal gel and I love it for the gym because I can hydrate my skin and not get all greasy for the gym.

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I love it for performing as well, Because, again, I don't need streaks everywhere, but my skin is hydrated. I use it hair skin nails. It's awesome. I have a thing with aloe gel right now.

KimHost

49:32

I didn't think about it you know my tattoo artist Because I also just got in the middle of all that health crap I was telling you about. I also just got a good part of my sleeve worked on Hell yeah. And she said go, slather aloe all over this.

DidiGuest

49:47

Yes, yes, I'm for it. I am for it, as long as you don't leave too much on it, because it absorbs fairly quickly. I love it.

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KimHost

49:55

Yeah, that's what she said, the second thing is please tell me a story.

DidiGuest

49:47

 I will tell you the story that I love to tell about how I met my spirit guides. So earlier on I told you that I was just lost as to how I had, how do I have these gifts? How do I have mediumship? How is this getting stronger as I get older? I also mentioned that I couldn't have children.

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I had unviable pregnancies and it leads to the imposter syndrome. And why the hell am I even here experiencing all this? And in one dream that I had because gosh I was, I had tried everything where I was meditating a good 40 minutes before bed every night with the intention of this and dream I was this black lamb and I was kept in a gold cage and my shackles were gold and they were lightweight, they were beautiful, and there was this man who was also a priest and he tended to the gardens that bore the food that I ate and I was kept like a meal. To be honest, I was prayed for and I was involved in a lot of different rituals and the man loved me and I knew the man loved me and I knew that they were preparing for a special feast, um, of which the childlike Empress that I had talked about before was going to perform a ritual for her people, and after said ritual she was going to be very weak, and those of us who do ritual work can understand that there is a weakness that comes after that. Your body, your human body's, kind of spent and, long story short, I was sacrificed for her meal and in the last ritual that I experienced. I was told that I was going to be gilded, my soul was going to be gilded for all of my lives, and from there I was the spark of light and I became.

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I went back to the meadow that I discussed earlier, with all the herbs and the pyramids in the background, and there was this man walking towards me far off in the distance, and it was kind of cool.

52:51

It looked like, you know how, when you ask AI to create an image, and it's like a bunch of images swirling together that have the same gist. It was this swirly image of a blue man and he sometimes had a headdress, sometimes he didn't, sometimes he was human, more human looking. Other times he was looking like the codexes in the Aztec and Mayan depictions of the god Tlaloc. I wasn't too familiar at the time with Tlaloc and he came up to me and I heard the giggling of children which at this point I had learned that the miscarriages that I had had were still around me. I had had another reader notice the energies of young children, daughters specifically, and I could hear them giggling within the breezes that this man was manifesting and bringing towards me, within the breezes that this man was manifesting and bringing towards me, and he was collecting all the seeds from all of these wildflowers and herbs that lay between us in this large meadow, and he brought the clouds in and made it drizzle like this beautiful warm sprinkle and it smelled phenomenal.

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I mean, it just smelled so good. And the dust came and I was covered with these, um, dirt and seeds and as I'm looking at myself, I see at my feet these two coral snakes. And I kind of stepped back and he kind of laughed and said no, they're, they're here, they're for you, they're gifts.

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And next thing I know I'm kind of lifted up into the breeze and I'm up against the clouds and he was able to bring the clouds in and make like an oven for me, baking underneath the heat and baking underneath the seeds and soil, and I could feel the germination of the seeds and they were all in my pores and growing and taking root in my organs and my bones and I finally exploded into this bouquet of herbs and flowers and telepathically he communicated to me that he had noticed my soul, that I was beautiful and that I would want for nothing soul, that I was beautiful and that I would want for nothing, that nothing could hurt me, that they would have to go through him first. And as I returned to a more intercorporeal version of myself, kind of like a, like a I wasn't solid human anymore, but I was taking a human form, like a spirit in a human shape, he grabbed a bunch of this dirt and rubbed it over my mouth and I could taste the dirt. For those of us witches that practice herbalismism, sometimes that smell of dirt smells so good and it it was like that I, it just smelled so good. I could taste it on my tongue and  it soon ended.

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After that, it was a wonderful experience and in my waking life I ran to the internet to find, you know, blue Mayan, codex god, and I came across Tlaloc, who is the god of wind, rain and lightning. He is the god that reminds us not to take too much. And there is a, there's a tie with, like, the mother earth concept about taking care of mother earth and not taking more than what you need and um, harvesting that kind of thing. And the goddess that was a Mayan God that was adapted by the Aztecs when the Aztecs took over. The goddess that was also adapted from Maya to Aztec was Razoteotl. She is the filth eater. The filth eater she is often depicted giving birth, because she is something like a Kali where she can bring life and also end it. And she's also something of a patron saint of sex workers, and I didn't know that at the time. So I was pretty floored and since then I've adopted a lot of my beliefs and a lot of my practices to include them, and that's that's one of my stories.

KimHost

58:13

That is amazing. Thank you so much.

DidiGuest

58:19

You're welcome. I love that story. 

KimHost

58:25

Me too Well, thank you.

Thank you so much for being on the show and for telling that story and all the other stories and for talking with me.

DidiGuest

58:32

Thank you. Thank you for having me. It's been a pleasure.

KimHost

58:36

Everybody be sure to check show notes, where you will find links to find didi and her amazing services, and I will see you on the internet, bye, bye. Okay, so didi, welcome to Hive House! e welcome you so hard. Okay, I'm gonna pull a card. It is not what you think, but please say when. 

DidiGuest

58:42

When.

 KimHost

58:43

What type of music playlists do you have? I've never asked that one before. (fades out)

(fades in) ... what is sacrament if they're taking in your body and your blood?

 DidiGuest

59:01

Oh man, Chicken wings. (fades out)

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59:33

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